Griffin used to fall asleep every night on Matt. He couldn't fall asleep any other way. When I would pick him up out of his crib, he would snuggle into my neck and suck his thumb. "I just love our snuggly baby", I would say. Matt and I used to turn on soft music at night and dance with him and he would just melt into us.
Then one day, about a month or so ago, I went to his crib and he reached up for me! I was so excited to see that he was telling me that he wants me to hold him and love him and squeeze him! Sadly, I was mistaken. The minute I picked him up, he started pushing me away with his hands AND feet! I was a bathtub full of water to his cat. I was crushed. This went on and on and I wondered where our "Mayor of Snuggle Town" went!
Now, I couldn't be happier. Do I wish that my son would just sit still for ONE second sometimes? YES! Am I sad that I've become merely the vehicle to get him out of the confines of his crib and into all the fun stuff? You bet! But I am blessed to have a little boy that wants to be a part of LIFE! Of everything! He is constantly smiling and laughing when he sees a new toy or tries a new food. He loves meeting new people. He wakes up every morning with a huge smile, ready to take on the day.
This little man daily tests my physical strength and my emotional limits. He is exhausting and there ARE those days that I practiacally throw him at Matt the minute he walks through the door! But, more than anything, he daily brings me to a state of joy. An "Attitude of Gratitude". He has made the quality of our lives better.
I am grateful.